2008-12-30

I AM FALLING IN LOVE WITH NEW YEARS

I hated it! Dreaded it!



New Years to me was just another reminder of all my shortcomings.
It reinforced to me the true depth of my inadequacies.

FAILED! FAILED! FAILED!


The only thing I was guaranteed to accomplish in each and every New Year was a great big stinky failure.
How many December31st have I found myself at the very same spot I was the January 1st before.
BANG BANG BANG goes my pointy little head against the big hard wall.

Then it happened!!

God, being God, does what He does best!
Messes with my head!

REVELATION!
TA DAH!!!
Just like flipping a switch from off to on.
I GOT IT!



Hearing my own voice giving someone the Shrek's onion "its all about the layers" spiel...
I GOT IT!

JOANNE!! ITS ALL ABOUT THE LAYERS!!!

All of these years what I only saw as the BIG F, w as not failure at all. It was yet another necessary step to identify where I still need to remove layers.

Apparently it took Mr Edison 9 hundred umpteen times to perfect that electricity thing and when asked what he thought about u
mpteen times he didn't get results he simply replied
"If I find 10,000 ways something won't work, I haven't failed. I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward."

(love you MR EDISON!)

I think my head knew it all along, I'm sure it must have, but somehow, its gotten in my heart.

Just like a glorious paradigm shift.

All of a sudden, when I could see nothing before, I can see all my baby steps.
Forward! Yes, even the falls down were forward.

I was blinded by not arriving how and when I thought I should.

Now I can see the depth of the journey and the solid foundation!

I CANNOT WAIT FOR NEW YEARS!

One more layer to come off. More to discove r about me!
More revelation in the spirit about what is really lying underneath.

There is absolutely no where to go but forward this year.















1 comment:

english muffin said...

Very well said Jo! As per usual!! You have to love Edison...briliant man! x