Friday, Aug 22 ~ THE STORY

Good Morning!!



It tis! It tis!!!



Was up early, as per sheduled and got the work out it.


So far eating is going as planned....



As planned you ask?!?!?


yes... (insert drum roll here)

THE STORY

Once upon a time there was a girl.

A girl whose entire life seem to be taken over by food.

Now, she's not sure how it happened,

but it took over her life.

It would control her, consume her, claim to be her friend and then lie to her.

Than it began to steal.

It stole her joy. It stole her health. It stole her peace.

Now the girl is taking it all back.

The monsters are shut away.

No more does she have to do their bidding.

No more do they control her.

But she controls them.

She chooses what to eat.

She calls the shots. She says where and when and what.

And she does it all with joy.

She is more than a conqueror.

She has rebuilt her health.

She is stronger.

Her thoughts are clear.

Her heart is settled.

She has life and life abundant.

But victory doesn't come without a price...

or a plan.

Sunday August 10, 2008

Summer is more than half over. My 60+ day juice fast seems a thing of the distant past.
This fast was such a deeply private, long awaited goal for me. It was something I thought would profoundly change, and sculpt me.

Perhaps, in many ways, it did. By faith it did.
I am believing things were pulled out of my body, toxic, deadly things and that my body has begun a journey to rebuild.
I am believing that I have changed somehow intrinsically spiritually, that something has “shifted” but to be blunt, I don’t see it right now.

Life still seems par-the-course as it were.

I miss the fast. Everything was simpler then, clearer. And I do hope to do another. But I don’t know if now is the time.

It was almost to easy. Indeed, life was easy on the fast. And now here I sit. Appearingly, the same Jo.
So now what. This journey with food has not ended. It has become a profound tool from God for me. Opening up things in me that were once hidden from my sight. Things that go far beyond food.

Because honestly, life comes and soon it goes. There is more too it than an over anylitical relationship with my dinner plate.
But an unexamined life is not worth living.
And God in His brillance, has used this to show me, me. The good, the bad, the ugly.
Perhaps, that is not why I am done yet. This entire walk with my mouth and my belly goes far beyond calories and fat grams.
It is something that once controlled and stole from me. It held me in bondage. And now with prayer and the power of God, step by step, what was in darkness is being brought into the light.

So what path now, God?

A scrap of paper has floated around my house for months now, hap-hazardly scribbled on it a thought that I thought worth keeping.

“Eating with intelligence and excellence.”

A thought that has intrigued me.
Is there another way besides just stuffing things in your mouth at the refrigerator door, when I want to cry?

Intelligence and excellence….

I have devoted the past 6 years of my life, studying, learning, reading, absorbing all I could find about natural health.
I’m certain that could qualify as “intelligence”….

But what is excellence……

This, I believe is my next walk…

I need to discover and perfect with precision, my own personal excellence.

Because a life left unexamined is not a life worth living.

I will start by sharing some of my dreams…..

How often I fail, but with God's grace, in this I walk....

Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy, is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily.

It is not conceited (arrogant and inflated with pride); it is not rude (unmannerly) and does not act unbecomingly. Love (God's love in us) does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong].

It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.

Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].

Love never fails [never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end].

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Second sowing ~day 1~ June 9, 2008 Monday

Raw and juicing.

Mostly juicing.

Soon to be all juicing.

Juicing takes away the pain. The excruciating pain.

Hard to feel like vomiting when your belly's empty.

Faced with a really hard choice.

My head throbs. I don't understand. My eyes hurt. I can't see.
Everything swirls.
God it hurts so much.

But there is a choice to be made at this point.

Today I lay before you life or death.
Choose life.
Deuteronomy 30:15

I choose life.
Life to my spirit.
Life to the dreams and visions God has placed in my heart.
They cannot/will not be stolen from me.

Satan is exposed. Light is shone

I choose life.

So many questions that may never be answered.
I don't understand.......
God I would give anything to understand.../

and yet somehow I do.

Only Jesus can set you free from your pain. For whoever the son sets free is free indeed.
I wish I could have seen it. I wished I could have walked it with you.

I would have walked it for you.

I wish.....

The fast brings us back to that place.
The truth.
We are here for such a sort season.
And for such a time as this.
And for such a heavenly purpose.

How can I stay in my own pain, when so many others hurt.
When so many are dying lost inside tonite.
So many broken hearts. Screaming, aching....

Who am I, that mine would matter.
My dreams, my loves....

This fast is for you.
Please shake off the chains that so easy beset and run the race.

The fast, removes the disease. The toxins. The poisons. The cancer inside.
So fresh flesh can grow.
Health will start.
Life will start.
New, perfect life.

If you want life. Either physically or spiritually, there is no difference.

Three things you must do.

First, remove the crap. It is all poison.
It will kill you. There is no doubt on that.
Slowly from the inside out. So stealthily that you will never see it coming, until one day it all crashes in.

The fast will do the cleansing for the flesh.
God will do that for both.

You must choose the fast.
You must choose the Christ.

Second, you must fill the body with life.
Fresh, living, nutritious life.
The juice will do that for the flesh.
The Christ will do that for both.
The living word of God, designed to be the soul (and sole) food for the spirit man.

Dont look anywhere else.
Sex, drugs, drink, money....
Anger, offense, pain, regret, jealousy, bitterness..

it is all poison.

it feeds the emptiness.

Please stop and get on your knees, now and here with me, and ask Jesus to fill you.

He will.

He will meet you right where you are at, right now.

Because He has met me here tonite.

He will never leave us or forsake us, for we are His.

And I am thankful.

For one more night, I will be able to sleep.
For one more morning, I will be able to get up.

His mercies are new every morning.

I have been given the first step....


sow again...

Tuesday May 3, 2008

For those who don't understand the point of another fast.

Let me explain it from 2 angles.

First nutritionally..

There is probably nothing more powerful than a fast.

Within the first 3 days, the body turns and begins to destroy and devour its dead, dying and diseased tissue.

With the nutrients in the juice. It rebuilds. With higher quality of building materials, the structure becomes stronger, more resilient, more effective.

There is never a one-time solution.


It has taken 40 years to get where I am. Health comes in time. In layers.
Each endeavor, you go further up and further in.
Giving yourself opportunity to recreate brick by brick.

Every endeavor, giving your body to release the build-up and crazy that has been eating away at your life.

Dis-ease is still in my members. I want it all gone.


I want to really know what would happen if I commit myself to this and press in.

I want to be able to speak hope and life into others.


Whats a few more days?

Life is simple on juice.

It feels right. My body reacts right. It is the right thing to do at this time.

I have no one else to contend with.
My life is alone and it interferes with no one.

What a wonderful opportunity.

There is a second side to this coin.

The commission.
The call.. the dream, drive... whatever you want to refer to it.

It is bigger inside me than anything else.

Who Am I

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.

Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tommorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind

Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am

I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love, and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Cause I am Yours





M. Hall
2003

May 31, Saturday,

There are moments, if you are lucky, when you realize things are much bigger than they seem.
Times when you truly realize that your life is not about you at all. Never was, never should have been. And with alot of grace, never will be again.

There is a time when you may realize that the "Thing" you thought was it... was not it at all....
it was just a prelude.... a trial run... a teaser.....

whatever you may want to call it.....

there are still monsters to be slain...

monsters in me and monsters roaming killing, stealing and destroying those that I love, and those that I never met that the one that I love, loves....

for those needing facts and figures, and concrete advancements....

the past 2 weeks have been victorious in some aspects....
udder failures in others.

Transition into food has been mostly raw vegan, or at least vegan.

A fun night with my daughter at all-you-can-eat-sushi hut. And 2 fried eggs, just last night.
Often more than my stomach can handle, which indicates an control problem.

There is still a place of physical healing, that needs to be walked in. That place where your body begins to destroy the disease. 55 days is a start, but disease takes years to establish. I must be patient.

My emotions are still very much wrapped up in food. It still very much has a power over me that threatens me.
It hangs over me, taunting me with my past, my demons.... reminding me how it would love me to return to that dark place.

But the light has been shone.

I thought the fight would be shorter but thats ok.
I have never been good with estimated numbers. So we are looking at a longer period of time.
I still know the result.
I am victorious.

So soon I start. Resowing seed.
I begin to listen and walk on another level.

there is always another level.

there is always further in and further up.

and it is not about me.

This is where I boldly say to all who continue to read.

I belong to the Lord Jesus Christ.

And all He chooses to do with this journey is up to Him. For it is in His strength and His alone that I must walk into this.

There is more.

If your heart ever wonders.
Don't doubt.
there is so much more.

You see it when you close your eyes.
Your daydreams take you there.

The trick is to remove yourself and live for something more.

Then the vision will become more clear.