THE VERDICT~ Week Three

Is it really week 3?
The thing is such a smoz and a blurr...

To be honest, I am quite embarrassed to blog this fast, when there are so many more encouraging and successful juice blogs to be had..

Thank you for your patience with me..

Week Three, hmm... let me see.

Successful. YES...
but not according to Jo's standards.

I have grown in ways i did not expect.
A solidness. A realization.

With the arrival of HuNNy BuN home next week, I started to panik.
MY GOALS HAVE NOT BEEN REACHED!
I HAD NOT ARRIVED!

But the past couple days a coolness has come upon me.
I have only just begun.

I must learn to walk in what I believe, even before Hunny Bun.
In all the wining and dining, I have to do what I need to do.

The juicing will continue until I'm done, and I will know when that is.
There is more healing in my body to be done, and I do not want to stop now.

Honey Bun will just have to wine and dine alone, and he'll have to understand.

This week, I finished 2 liver flushes. Very successful.
The mucus drain down the back of my head seems to have stopped.
Clothes fit nicer. No difference in measurements, but fit nicer.

I am starting to move again on the rebounder.
And I am realizing I like this life.
I like health.

The cravings and compulsions seem to be fading. Peace is slowing swelling over me.
After years of the fight, could there finally be a place of peace?

When food and illness become your master, it is a horrible bondage.

I am meeting the inside of me more and more.
I am learning the lies and tricks i would tell myself that keep me in my bondage.

And now with God's grace, I am learning tools to change my me.
I will not go back.

This is what I stand for.

I am a natural food coach and I am determined to walk the road to qualify me to speak life into all those who are mired in the same mess.

Week 3~ well done.....

THE VERDICT~ Week Two

Well, week two
SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No other way to put it. I struggled thru it all. My attitude, my focus.
It was so cold here, all I could do was to curl up in a ball.

I got behind on my sitz baths, which should be done consistently in order to see any effect.
I went back to drinking some coffee, waking a horrible beast, telling myself...
tommorrow, tomorrow...

My attitude with the kids stunk.
They could do nothing right.
I was miserable and grumpy, all the more wanting to wallow myself if a big bowl of something gooey with a big glass of red.

No.... make that a whole bottle of red....

My studying time...nil
My devotional time....nadda
My writing time... na uh

And now I feel the pressure. I feel the defeat. I have lost sooo much time.
I realize that BF is back in 14 short days and then the wining and dining will begin again.

......

AUGHHHH!!!

I fall dramatically across my bed, like a forlorn damsel...
How ever will I stand then? Will I ever see victory?

The monsters yell in my ear. HOLY HANNAH!!!!
are those things still alive?
I must punish myself. I can cheat my way around this.
Just binge Jo.
BLOW IT! BLOW IT!
You know you WANT TOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

How oh How!!! Swirly whirly goes the head..... ummm, just like a toxic, pasturized cow pus, artificially colored, flavored, preserved, swirly ice cream cone......

now... xhale.......
deep breathing.....

some where in there... Holy Ghost met me....
grace came flooding......

I xhaled..

This week I made decisions... do I want this? YES!!
Am I still able.... YES!!!

Do I need to grasp the concept that this is a journey I will need to walk when BF comes home, and not make him my xcuse for my food choices..... (weakly... yes)

Do I see now, that my enemy roams like a roaring lion looking to devour me, and I must always be watchful.

Am i even more strengthened to love on others when they wrestle with their defeat and monsters...

YES!!!!

Do I really realize that it all starts with submitting myself quietly day in and day out, moment by moment, to the peace and strength of Christ because in and of myself I can do nothing....

YES.......and YES.......

So in the grand scheme of things,
Whats the Verdict for Week 2??

THE VERDICT~ Week One

Alrighty, adding one more Options for all you Fast-Watchers....

THE VERDICT... ta da!~

To break this whole ordeal down nicely we have~

• THE MECHANICS~ where I'll give you the technical play by play of what I'm juicing, what I'm doing
• THE MOMENTS~ my profound or not so profound encounters with myself and God while fasting
• THE VERDICT~ my weekly synopsis of whether I really think the past week was worth my effort and the results I've noticed....

My oh my... this certainly is becoming quite organized isn't it??

Alright... on with it then.... VERDICT WEEK ONE~~

Feeling pretty awesome about it all.
The biggest difference I've noticed is in sleeping habits. I've been waking up easily by 5
BIG BIG improvement right there.

Seems a little bit of "bloat" has moved from my middle as some tighter pants do up much easier.

Still passing debris in the colon cleanse... exactly how much cr@p is up there me wonders??

The biggest difference I've noticed however is that the slight mucous drizzle that I've always had is gone~~~ almost 100%!!
This is unbelievable to me, as it has been there as long as I can remember, even thru previous fasts. The only thing I can attribute this too is the daily sitz baths.
They are the only thing I have added that I hadn't before.......

Guess, we'll see whats what next week at this time....